First off, I hope you all had a very merry Christmas!
I've been sick for the better part of a couple of months....hence all the silence. It's been one thing after another. First, Bronchitis, which took almost a month to get over. Sinus issues here and there. Then, a bad cold. Fortunately, I felt pretty good on Christmas Day and I got to celebrate with all my family. Still not complete well, but much better.
No Candy November went very well. I surprised myself at how well I stuck to it. On December 1, I had some dark chocolate. It was heavenly!
So, now we are coming up on another new year. Where does the time go?! It seems to go faster and faster. Anyway, I've never been much on New Year's resolutions. I used to do it when I was younger, but let's face it....we usually just end up disappointing ourselves. So, I figured "What's the point?".
It's been 10 or more years since I've made any New Year's Resolutions but I think I'm going to give it another try. It can't hurt, right?
I was thinking of what my resolutions should be and it occurred to me that I need to work on all aspects of my life. Not just the usual stuff like eating healthy, working out, etc. Although those are very important, I need some inward work, too. My spiritual life has been lacking lately. I've let the busyness of everyday life take over and I need a change. So my goal is to have a well rounded resolution list.
Most of you have heard me say before that I'm a bit of a perfectionist. Actually I've labeled myself as a "procrastinating perfectionist". I'm not sure if that's a real thing or not, but it sums me up pretty well. I often put things off. But, when I make up my mind and decide to do something, I usually put everything I have into it....which can be a blessing and a curse.
I haven't finished my list yet. (I've procrastinated....big surprise.) But, if I'm going to do it, I'm going to do it right! I hope to finish it today.
Are you making New Year's Resolutions? If so, what are they?
I hope you all have a happy New Year! Have fun and be safe :)
Until next time...
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
"No Candy November"!
I realize it's already 5 days into November, but I'm declaring the rest of this month as "No Candy November". I got the idea from one of my friend's Twitter posts. How brilliant is that? No Candy November.
Okay, confession time. We have a TON of Halloween candy in this house! Not only do we have oodles of leftover trick-or-treat candy that we didn't give out, but my son has a bucket full, yes-bucket full, of candy also. I don't mean one of those little pumpkin buckets....an actual bucket! I have found myself snacking on it, quite often, for the last 5 days. Well, no more! No Candy November starts NOW! Well...as soon as I finish this lollipop.
Who's with me?! Let's tell these candy producers where they can shove it! (You can't tell, but in my mind I'm jumping around getting "the wave" started somewhere. I'm pumped!)
Okay, confession time. We have a TON of Halloween candy in this house! Not only do we have oodles of leftover trick-or-treat candy that we didn't give out, but my son has a bucket full, yes-bucket full, of candy also. I don't mean one of those little pumpkin buckets....an actual bucket! I have found myself snacking on it, quite often, for the last 5 days. Well, no more! No Candy November starts NOW! Well...as soon as I finish this lollipop.
Who's with me?! Let's tell these candy producers where they can shove it! (You can't tell, but in my mind I'm jumping around getting "the wave" started somewhere. I'm pumped!)
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
October Update
Long time, no see. (or 'hear', rather)
It's been a busy month! And, it's just going to get busier and busier with Thanksgiving and Christmas coming up.
I thought I'd pop in for a quick update. I've been doing the Couch to 5K program and it's been going pretty well. I stayed on week 1 for two weeks and I stayed on week 2 for two weeks, as well. Today I decided to switch things up a bit. I was curious to see how long I could jog without any breaks or intervals. So, I got on the treadmill and did a 5 minute warm up and then just started jogging. I'm not going to lie, going into this I thought maybe (just maybe) I could make it to 5 minutes without stopping. Since I had only been doing 1-1.5 minute intervals, I thought it would be doable. I got to the 5 minute mark and I almost stopped. Let's face it, our minds can get in the way if we let them. I had already decided (in my mind) that I wouldn't be able to go longer than 5 minutes and I came very close to stopping. But, I decided "What the heck. I'll just keep going and see what happens." I ended up going for another 2 minutes for a total of 7 minutes of nonstop jogging. That doesn't sound like a lot, but for someone my size I think it was pretty good. So, I'm thinking I will try to add one minute to my total each time I jog. If I see that's too much, I may just change it to 30 seconds. In my mind, 3-4 minutes more each week sounds like A LOT! But, my mind is my worst enemy when it comes to challenges so I'm going to give it a go anyway.
So, the workout part of my routine has been going pretty well. The eating part, not so much. I had a couple of rough nights in the past week with binging. I'm an emotional eater and that's how I handle stressful or emotional days. Food addiction sucks! That's a whole other post, though.
My energy has been way down the past couple of weeks and my emotions have been all over the place. The muscle twitching in my hands and legs have started back up, too. Not sure if my Vitamin D is down again or if it's just a funk I'm going through. I had labs done last week, so I'll find out my levels tomorrow when I go to the Endocrinologist.
On a happier note, I am loving Fall! I love this cooler weather and I just adore this time of year. It's acca-awesome! Sorry, sometimes Pitch Perfect lingo gets stuck in my head. I'll hush before I get Pitch slapped. Okay, that was the last one. Promise.
So, that's it for now. Until next time...
It's been a busy month! And, it's just going to get busier and busier with Thanksgiving and Christmas coming up.
I thought I'd pop in for a quick update. I've been doing the Couch to 5K program and it's been going pretty well. I stayed on week 1 for two weeks and I stayed on week 2 for two weeks, as well. Today I decided to switch things up a bit. I was curious to see how long I could jog without any breaks or intervals. So, I got on the treadmill and did a 5 minute warm up and then just started jogging. I'm not going to lie, going into this I thought maybe (just maybe) I could make it to 5 minutes without stopping. Since I had only been doing 1-1.5 minute intervals, I thought it would be doable. I got to the 5 minute mark and I almost stopped. Let's face it, our minds can get in the way if we let them. I had already decided (in my mind) that I wouldn't be able to go longer than 5 minutes and I came very close to stopping. But, I decided "What the heck. I'll just keep going and see what happens." I ended up going for another 2 minutes for a total of 7 minutes of nonstop jogging. That doesn't sound like a lot, but for someone my size I think it was pretty good. So, I'm thinking I will try to add one minute to my total each time I jog. If I see that's too much, I may just change it to 30 seconds. In my mind, 3-4 minutes more each week sounds like A LOT! But, my mind is my worst enemy when it comes to challenges so I'm going to give it a go anyway.
So, the workout part of my routine has been going pretty well. The eating part, not so much. I had a couple of rough nights in the past week with binging. I'm an emotional eater and that's how I handle stressful or emotional days. Food addiction sucks! That's a whole other post, though.
My energy has been way down the past couple of weeks and my emotions have been all over the place. The muscle twitching in my hands and legs have started back up, too. Not sure if my Vitamin D is down again or if it's just a funk I'm going through. I had labs done last week, so I'll find out my levels tomorrow when I go to the Endocrinologist.
On a happier note, I am loving Fall! I love this cooler weather and I just adore this time of year. It's acca-awesome! Sorry, sometimes Pitch Perfect lingo gets stuck in my head. I'll hush before I get Pitch slapped. Okay, that was the last one. Promise.
So, that's it for now. Until next time...
Friday, September 27, 2013
C25K (Week 1 Day 3)
Well, I finished the first week! Yippee!
I've decided to repeat week 1. I just don't feel ready to move to week 2 yet. I've been doing strength training on my off days. The strength training is going well, but I feel a little overwhelmed (or at least my body does). I'm going to repeat week 1 and continue doing the strength training on my non-C25K days. Fingers crossed that next week I'll be able to move on to week 2!
I'm very proud of myself. Most days I felt way too tired to do it, but I did it anyway. I stuck to my plan and, for that, I commend myself.
I'm hoping I can work a new pair of running shoes into the budget this weekend. I desperately need them. My feet have been killing me!
Here's what I did for strength training yesterday:
For arms:
Bicep curl/Shoulder press combo- 3 sets of 15 (10 lb. weights)
Tricep extensions- 3 sets of 15 (10 lb. weights)
For legs:
Squats- 45
Sumo squat holds- 3 for 30 seconds each
One legged calf raises- 45 for each leg
The sumo squat holds did a number on me. I am SO FREAKING SORE!
Today I did Week 1 Day 3 of C25K. I am super glad it's over for the week. I struggled today.
Tomorrow I will do more arm and leg strength training and Sunday I will rest. Aaahh, rest sounds good....
I probably won't update on each workout next week since it's a repeat. I'll just update at the end of the week :)
Have a great weekend, y'all! Until next time....
I've decided to repeat week 1. I just don't feel ready to move to week 2 yet. I've been doing strength training on my off days. The strength training is going well, but I feel a little overwhelmed (or at least my body does). I'm going to repeat week 1 and continue doing the strength training on my non-C25K days. Fingers crossed that next week I'll be able to move on to week 2!
I'm very proud of myself. Most days I felt way too tired to do it, but I did it anyway. I stuck to my plan and, for that, I commend myself.
I'm hoping I can work a new pair of running shoes into the budget this weekend. I desperately need them. My feet have been killing me!
Here's what I did for strength training yesterday:
For arms:
Bicep curl/Shoulder press combo- 3 sets of 15 (10 lb. weights)
Tricep extensions- 3 sets of 15 (10 lb. weights)
For legs:
Squats- 45
Sumo squat holds- 3 for 30 seconds each
One legged calf raises- 45 for each leg
The sumo squat holds did a number on me. I am SO FREAKING SORE!
Today I did Week 1 Day 3 of C25K. I am super glad it's over for the week. I struggled today.
Tomorrow I will do more arm and leg strength training and Sunday I will rest. Aaahh, rest sounds good....
I probably won't update on each workout next week since it's a repeat. I'll just update at the end of the week :)
Have a great weekend, y'all! Until next time....
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
C25K (Week 1 Day 2)
Today was tough, but it's done. I'll go into that a little more in a minute.
Yesterday I did a little strength training. Nothing hardcore, but I was sore today so I guess it was hard enough. For my legs, I did 12 lunges (these bothered my knee, so I didn't stay on them for long), 25 squats, 3 wall sits (I didn't time myself, but if I had to guess I'd say maybe 30 sec. each time), one legged calf lifts (3 sets of 15 on each leg). For my arms, I did curls, shoulder presses, and tricep extensions (3 sets of 15 on each exercise with 10 lb weights).
I was feeling it today. I didn't sleep well last night and I have a headache today. Nothing too horrible, but just enough to make me feel a little sick to my stomach. I was so close to putting my workout off until tomorrow, but I didn't.
Today's workout seemed 3 times harder than Monday's. I'm sure the soreness and the headache played a big part in that. I felt like I was going to collapse when I finished. It felt like there were tiny pulses of electricity quickly dispersing all over my legs for about 5-10 minutes after finishing my workout. It didn't hurt or anything, just feels strange. This has happened before but I have no idea what causes it. As long as it doesn't hurt and goes away, I figure it's okay. My gosh, I'm so tired right now but I'm glad I decided to go ahead and stay on plan.
Today's C25K workout was exactly the same as Monday.
My plan is to do the C25K three days a week (M, W, F). I'll do strength training three days a week, also (T, TH, SA). Sundays will be an off day. Ooh, that sounds nice!
My mood is a little off today, so sorry if this post is boring. I'm having to tell my fingers to type because I'm so tired.
Until next time...
Yesterday I did a little strength training. Nothing hardcore, but I was sore today so I guess it was hard enough. For my legs, I did 12 lunges (these bothered my knee, so I didn't stay on them for long), 25 squats, 3 wall sits (I didn't time myself, but if I had to guess I'd say maybe 30 sec. each time), one legged calf lifts (3 sets of 15 on each leg). For my arms, I did curls, shoulder presses, and tricep extensions (3 sets of 15 on each exercise with 10 lb weights).
I was feeling it today. I didn't sleep well last night and I have a headache today. Nothing too horrible, but just enough to make me feel a little sick to my stomach. I was so close to putting my workout off until tomorrow, but I didn't.
Today's workout seemed 3 times harder than Monday's. I'm sure the soreness and the headache played a big part in that. I felt like I was going to collapse when I finished. It felt like there were tiny pulses of electricity quickly dispersing all over my legs for about 5-10 minutes after finishing my workout. It didn't hurt or anything, just feels strange. This has happened before but I have no idea what causes it. As long as it doesn't hurt and goes away, I figure it's okay. My gosh, I'm so tired right now but I'm glad I decided to go ahead and stay on plan.
Today's C25K workout was exactly the same as Monday.
My plan is to do the C25K three days a week (M, W, F). I'll do strength training three days a week, also (T, TH, SA). Sundays will be an off day. Ooh, that sounds nice!
My mood is a little off today, so sorry if this post is boring. I'm having to tell my fingers to type because I'm so tired.
Until next time...
Monday, September 23, 2013
Couch To 5K
Hello, friends. Hope your Monday hasn't been too terrible. It's always a struggle for me to get going again. Nevertheless, it hasn't been terrible.
I've decided to go through a program called Couch to 5K, again. Yes, I'm no stranger to this program. This is probably my 5th time attempting it. I completed it about 5 years ago. Since then, I've played around with it on and off. The last couple of times I tried it, my knee started giving me problems so I quit. I'm hoping this time will be better.
I thought I'd journal my progress as I go. For those that aren't familiar with the program, here's a link to it. http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml
There's also a free app for it. I downloaded it to my iPhone and that's what I am using.
I've made myself a few promises this time.
1.) I will take it slow. My lovely "all or nothing" mentality comes into play here. I usually dive in full force. To the point of over-doing it, injuring myself, and burning out too quickly. If I need to, I'll repeat weeks. Actually, I'm sure I'll need to. If it takes me 6 months or a year, that's fine. I'm sure my pace will be laughable to some, but that's okay. I don't care. I'm not doing this to win an award.
2.) I will listen to my body. In the past, I've tried to do too much "extra" stuff and I end up paying for it. Not this time. I won't do any running on my off days. I'll probably do some weight lifting on those days. Or maybe just walk.
3.) I will not obsess over the scale. Anytime I start something new, I always weigh myself. And when I don't live up to my expectations, I get super frustrated with myself and I let it get me down. I started the program today and I didn't weigh. In fact, I'm not going to weigh. I won't obsess over the numbers this time. This is about SO much more than a freaking number!
4.) I will not obsess over food, either. I will do my best to make better choices, but I'm not going to count calories. My plan is to eat fewer carbs on my off-workout days and eat more carbs on my workout days. I guess it's kind of like carb cycling, just not sticking to an exact number.
I have accepted the fact that the weight will probably come off slow. I'm okay with that. I'm not going to let my world revolve my weight, for once. That stops now.
So, today I completed Day 1 of Week 1. It wasn't terrible, but it was clearly evident that I've let myself go. WAY too much. Here's what today's workout consisted of:
5 minute warm up walk
1 minute jog followed by 1.5 minutes walking (repeat this 7 more times)
5 minute cool down walk
Total of 30 minutes
I did this on my treadmill. It is cushioned and until I find out how my knee is going to do, I think I'll stick to the treadmill. My pace was super slow. My jogging pace was at level 3.5 and my walking pace was at level 2.8. I should probably be ashamed of that pace, but it is what it is. I finished the workout and that's what is important. My legs and ankles were on fire when I finished. My back was killing me. I felt terrible and yet awesome at the same time. Yay for me!
I am going to try my best to update after each workout. So, until next time...
I've decided to go through a program called Couch to 5K, again. Yes, I'm no stranger to this program. This is probably my 5th time attempting it. I completed it about 5 years ago. Since then, I've played around with it on and off. The last couple of times I tried it, my knee started giving me problems so I quit. I'm hoping this time will be better.
I thought I'd journal my progress as I go. For those that aren't familiar with the program, here's a link to it. http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml
There's also a free app for it. I downloaded it to my iPhone and that's what I am using.
I've made myself a few promises this time.
1.) I will take it slow. My lovely "all or nothing" mentality comes into play here. I usually dive in full force. To the point of over-doing it, injuring myself, and burning out too quickly. If I need to, I'll repeat weeks. Actually, I'm sure I'll need to. If it takes me 6 months or a year, that's fine. I'm sure my pace will be laughable to some, but that's okay. I don't care. I'm not doing this to win an award.
2.) I will listen to my body. In the past, I've tried to do too much "extra" stuff and I end up paying for it. Not this time. I won't do any running on my off days. I'll probably do some weight lifting on those days. Or maybe just walk.
3.) I will not obsess over the scale. Anytime I start something new, I always weigh myself. And when I don't live up to my expectations, I get super frustrated with myself and I let it get me down. I started the program today and I didn't weigh. In fact, I'm not going to weigh. I won't obsess over the numbers this time. This is about SO much more than a freaking number!
4.) I will not obsess over food, either. I will do my best to make better choices, but I'm not going to count calories. My plan is to eat fewer carbs on my off-workout days and eat more carbs on my workout days. I guess it's kind of like carb cycling, just not sticking to an exact number.
I have accepted the fact that the weight will probably come off slow. I'm okay with that. I'm not going to let my world revolve my weight, for once. That stops now.
So, today I completed Day 1 of Week 1. It wasn't terrible, but it was clearly evident that I've let myself go. WAY too much. Here's what today's workout consisted of:
5 minute warm up walk
1 minute jog followed by 1.5 minutes walking (repeat this 7 more times)
5 minute cool down walk
Total of 30 minutes
I did this on my treadmill. It is cushioned and until I find out how my knee is going to do, I think I'll stick to the treadmill. My pace was super slow. My jogging pace was at level 3.5 and my walking pace was at level 2.8. I should probably be ashamed of that pace, but it is what it is. I finished the workout and that's what is important. My legs and ankles were on fire when I finished. My back was killing me. I felt terrible and yet awesome at the same time. Yay for me!
I am going to try my best to update after each workout. So, until next time...
Saturday, September 14, 2013
Quest for the Perfect Low Carb Pumpkin Spice Latte
A quest, it is.
I was determined to find the recipe for the perfect low carb pumpkin spice latte. I even drove out of town to a Starbucks to get a Pumpkin Spice Latte to compare with the recipes. I found 3 recipes that I thought would be great contenders. *Sigh*....I did NOT find the perfect recipe. But, it wasn't for a lack of trying. I felt like a mad scientist in that kitchen! :)
I can't in good conscious say that any of the recipes compared the Starbucks version. There is one recipe that was on the right track but I couldn't get the "sweetness" right. It wasn't sweet enough and when I added more Splenda, it then tasted overly "fake" sweet.
Here's the recipe that was the best.
1/4 cup coconut milk (full fat)
1/4 cup heavy cream
1 cup strong coffee
2 tbsp. 100% pumpkin puree
1/2 tsp. pumpkin pie spice
1.5 tbsp. Splenda
Whisk all ingredients in a saucepan on medium/low for about 7-10 minutes, stirring constantly. If you don't mind a little pumpkin puree texture, just pour it in a cup. If you like your lattes smooth, strain the mixture into a cup. The texture didn't bother me. It wasn't very gritty or anything to me.
**Please don't expect this to taste like Starbucks. It doesn't.
It was okay, but in comparison to the Starbucks version it fell short. It was almost there, but something was missing. I almost think a tablespoon of organic maple syrup would have done the trick (in place of some of the Splenda). I didn't have any, so I couldn't test that theory. I did like the flavor that the coconut milk added, though.
A tablespoon of organic maple syrup is only 13-14 carbs So, even if that was used instead of Splenda it would still be WAY less carbs than the original Starbucks version. Maybe I'll try that next time.
I had some leftover coffee in the pot, so I poured some into a cup, added a couple of teaspoons of pumpkin puree (or maybe a tablespoon?), a little Splenda, and some SF Coffee Mate pumpkin spice creamer to it and it was just as good as the recipe above, maybe better.
So, the quest for the perfect low carb pumpkin spice latte is still in motion. Not much success today, but at least I learned some things that work and some things that don't.
It's all part of experimenting. I may try again next weekend. We'll see.
Until then...
I was determined to find the recipe for the perfect low carb pumpkin spice latte. I even drove out of town to a Starbucks to get a Pumpkin Spice Latte to compare with the recipes. I found 3 recipes that I thought would be great contenders. *Sigh*....I did NOT find the perfect recipe. But, it wasn't for a lack of trying. I felt like a mad scientist in that kitchen! :)
I can't in good conscious say that any of the recipes compared the Starbucks version. There is one recipe that was on the right track but I couldn't get the "sweetness" right. It wasn't sweet enough and when I added more Splenda, it then tasted overly "fake" sweet.
Here's the recipe that was the best.
1/4 cup coconut milk (full fat)
1/4 cup heavy cream
1 cup strong coffee
2 tbsp. 100% pumpkin puree
1/2 tsp. pumpkin pie spice
1.5 tbsp. Splenda
Whisk all ingredients in a saucepan on medium/low for about 7-10 minutes, stirring constantly. If you don't mind a little pumpkin puree texture, just pour it in a cup. If you like your lattes smooth, strain the mixture into a cup. The texture didn't bother me. It wasn't very gritty or anything to me.
**Please don't expect this to taste like Starbucks. It doesn't.
It was okay, but in comparison to the Starbucks version it fell short. It was almost there, but something was missing. I almost think a tablespoon of organic maple syrup would have done the trick (in place of some of the Splenda). I didn't have any, so I couldn't test that theory. I did like the flavor that the coconut milk added, though.
A tablespoon of organic maple syrup is only 13-14 carbs So, even if that was used instead of Splenda it would still be WAY less carbs than the original Starbucks version. Maybe I'll try that next time.
I had some leftover coffee in the pot, so I poured some into a cup, added a couple of teaspoons of pumpkin puree (or maybe a tablespoon?), a little Splenda, and some SF Coffee Mate pumpkin spice creamer to it and it was just as good as the recipe above, maybe better.
So, the quest for the perfect low carb pumpkin spice latte is still in motion. Not much success today, but at least I learned some things that work and some things that don't.
It's all part of experimenting. I may try again next weekend. We'll see.
Until then...
Monday, September 9, 2013
Do You Love Yourself Enough?
I was perusing on Facebook today, looking back at some posts over the weekend that Chris Powell posted, and I came across a post that really made me stop and think.
"The more you love yourself, the more you keep your promises to yourself." What have you done today to keep a promise you made to yourself? - Chris Powell
It really got me thinking. Do I love myself enough? Do I love myself at all?
Hmmmm....
My conclusion....probably not. I am my own worst enemy, critical of my every action. At times, I loathe myself. Frustrated by my failures, I tell myself that I'm not good enough. I. am. hard. on. myself.
Why do I do that?
To a certain point, I think it's okay to be hard on ourselves. It makes us strive to be better. To improve. To grow. But, do we go too far?
Sometimes. Most of time, in my case.
If I spent more time focusing on the improvements I've made, would my attitude towards myself change? Would I be more apt to succeed? Would I start to love myself more? Would I be able to keep my promises?
I think women, as a whole, are very critical of themselves. We spend way too much time wondering if we look too fat in our jeans. Asking why we can't be as successful as the person sitting next to us. Wondering why we can't look like her. Or, her. Or, her. Relentlessly comparing ourselves to other women while our self-confidence and self-worth gets thrown in the trash. Why do we do that?
So, I'm going to vow to try to do better. To give myself a fighting chance. To rejoice in my victories. To renounce the urge to beat myself up, mentally, when I don't make a goal. To look in the mirror, every now and then, and say "You are enough.".
What will you do to make sure you keep your promises to yourself?
"The more you love yourself, the more you keep your promises to yourself." What have you done today to keep a promise you made to yourself? - Chris Powell
It really got me thinking. Do I love myself enough? Do I love myself at all?
Hmmmm....
My conclusion....probably not. I am my own worst enemy, critical of my every action. At times, I loathe myself. Frustrated by my failures, I tell myself that I'm not good enough. I. am. hard. on. myself.
Why do I do that?
To a certain point, I think it's okay to be hard on ourselves. It makes us strive to be better. To improve. To grow. But, do we go too far?
Sometimes. Most of time, in my case.
If I spent more time focusing on the improvements I've made, would my attitude towards myself change? Would I be more apt to succeed? Would I start to love myself more? Would I be able to keep my promises?
I think women, as a whole, are very critical of themselves. We spend way too much time wondering if we look too fat in our jeans. Asking why we can't be as successful as the person sitting next to us. Wondering why we can't look like her. Or, her. Or, her. Relentlessly comparing ourselves to other women while our self-confidence and self-worth gets thrown in the trash. Why do we do that?
So, I'm going to vow to try to do better. To give myself a fighting chance. To rejoice in my victories. To renounce the urge to beat myself up, mentally, when I don't make a goal. To look in the mirror, every now and then, and say "You are enough.".
What will you do to make sure you keep your promises to yourself?
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
Crap
....describes my day. Or week, rather.
I feel like crap. I look like crap. I've eaten like crap.
My son kind of embarrassed me at church last Wednesday night. I heard him yell out "What the crap!" on the playground. Talk about embarrassed. You're probably thinking that that's not so bad. But, my son has voice that exceeds all others. Truly, the loudest little boy in the world. It's not an exaggeration, either. And, I have no idea where he gets "crap" from. Okay, okay. I say it WAY too much. Bad mama.
Anyway, it's been a crappy day. My son decided to choose the day his mama felt horrible to continuously whine about school. Any other day, the whining probably wouldn't have seemed so bad, though.
As much as I like to keep things positive, I'd be lying if I said everything was fine. I'm having a sinus/allergy attack from Hades that I can't seem to shake. Just when I start feeling better...BAM, it knocks me upside the head again with a prehistoric, man-made piece of wood, that I imagine looks similar to Bam Bam's bat from the Flintstones.
When I feel crappy, I eat crappy.
When will I be able to overcome emotional eating? The more I ask myself this, the clearer the answer becomes. I won't. I will always struggle with this. Probably 'till the day I die. Even on my death bed, I'll be craving a freaking DQ Blizzard.
While I haven't flown the coop completely, I haven't done very well, either. Since my appointment with the Endocrinologist (about 6 weeks ago), I've lost about 12 lbs. Doesn't sound too bad, but I lost 9 lbs the first week after the appointment. Since then it's been coming off super slow. 3 lbs. in 5 weeks is ridiculous! Yeah, yeah...I lost. But, not up to my standards.
Maybe that's the problem. Maybe I expect too much of myself. I start out all in. Ready to crush my goals and laugh in their faces as I do it! Then, when I fall short of that expectation, I crash. I crash into my All-or-Nothing, downward spiraling state of mind. "Nothing" being the key word here. It's a problem that I'm very aware of. I've mentioned my All-or-Nothing mindset several times. I'm completely aware of it. I just don't know how to get past it. My mom is exactly the same way, so I know where I get it from. But, how do I change it?
And if I hear, "You just have to set your mind and do it." one more time, I swear....I will hurt that person. Like I haven't tried that before? That is so much easier said than done.
Sorry for my witchy mood. I'm a witch, today. What can I say?
Here's to hopefully having a non-crappy day and a non-witchy attitude tomorrow.
Yours truly,
The Crap-tastic Witchy Woman
I feel like crap. I look like crap. I've eaten like crap.
My son kind of embarrassed me at church last Wednesday night. I heard him yell out "What the crap!" on the playground. Talk about embarrassed. You're probably thinking that that's not so bad. But, my son has voice that exceeds all others. Truly, the loudest little boy in the world. It's not an exaggeration, either. And, I have no idea where he gets "crap" from. Okay, okay. I say it WAY too much. Bad mama.
Anyway, it's been a crappy day. My son decided to choose the day his mama felt horrible to continuously whine about school. Any other day, the whining probably wouldn't have seemed so bad, though.
As much as I like to keep things positive, I'd be lying if I said everything was fine. I'm having a sinus/allergy attack from Hades that I can't seem to shake. Just when I start feeling better...BAM, it knocks me upside the head again with a prehistoric, man-made piece of wood, that I imagine looks similar to Bam Bam's bat from the Flintstones.
When I feel crappy, I eat crappy.
When will I be able to overcome emotional eating? The more I ask myself this, the clearer the answer becomes. I won't. I will always struggle with this. Probably 'till the day I die. Even on my death bed, I'll be craving a freaking DQ Blizzard.
While I haven't flown the coop completely, I haven't done very well, either. Since my appointment with the Endocrinologist (about 6 weeks ago), I've lost about 12 lbs. Doesn't sound too bad, but I lost 9 lbs the first week after the appointment. Since then it's been coming off super slow. 3 lbs. in 5 weeks is ridiculous! Yeah, yeah...I lost. But, not up to my standards.
Maybe that's the problem. Maybe I expect too much of myself. I start out all in. Ready to crush my goals and laugh in their faces as I do it! Then, when I fall short of that expectation, I crash. I crash into my All-or-Nothing, downward spiraling state of mind. "Nothing" being the key word here. It's a problem that I'm very aware of. I've mentioned my All-or-Nothing mindset several times. I'm completely aware of it. I just don't know how to get past it. My mom is exactly the same way, so I know where I get it from. But, how do I change it?
And if I hear, "You just have to set your mind and do it." one more time, I swear....I will hurt that person. Like I haven't tried that before? That is so much easier said than done.
Sorry for my witchy mood. I'm a witch, today. What can I say?
Here's to hopefully having a non-crappy day and a non-witchy attitude tomorrow.
Yours truly,
The Crap-tastic Witchy Woman
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Carb Cycling
Hello, friends. Hope y'all are having a good week so far.
So, I've been considering trying Carb Cycling for some time now. Chris Powell (from Extreme Weight Loss) uses this method with his clients. His clients seem to drop massive amounts of weight. It seems to work.
Here is a link to an article he wrote on carb cycling http://chrispowell.com/carb-cycling-101/
I'm no stranger to eating low carb. I've done it on and off for years. I seem to do well with it, but the problem lies with making it a lifestyle. There can be long term effects of a prolonged low carb diet. While it does get the weight off, there are other things to consider.
With low carb diets (especially Atkins, where you consume high amounts of protein and fat and very little fiber), there can be quite a few long term effects. Heart disease, malnutrition, vitamin deficiencies, digestive diseases, organ damage, and cancer risk (specifically, colon cancer) are a few. I recently read that certain low carb diets can also cause diabetes and pre-diabetes to worsen because of the high fat consumption.
I don't think all low carb diets are bad for us. It all depends on what your low carb diet consists of. In the past, I have used the Atkins diet for most of my low carbing. As I'm researching, I'm finding that Atkins has the most damaging effects. Too much fat and too much protein aren't good for us. It's probably much safer to focus on LEAN meats and get most of our carbs from green vegetables or fruit.
I'm thinking that carb cycling wouldn't have all those long term effects since you would be having a few high carb days each week. The idea is to eat high carb on workout days and low carb on non-workout days. I'm sure it will be trial and error until I find a carb ratio that works for me.
In the article that I linked above, Chris lists 4 different carb cycles you can choose from. My plan is to try the Turbo Plan. That means, 2 low carb days followed by 1 high carb day. Repeat. Then a reward day. Then it starts all over again. I'm not sure if I'll do a reward day EVERY week, but I will probably do it every now and then.
So, here's my carb cycling details:
Low carb days: 20-25 grams of TOTAL carbs. Mostly lean meats and green vegetables. Exercise will be limited to walking only.
High carb days: No more than 75 grams of HEALTHY carbs. Mostly from fruit, vegetables and whole grains....such as quinoa, brown rice, whole grain bread, etc. Exercise will consist of cardio (like walking and running intervals) and muscle building (like lifting weights, doing squats, burpees (which I loathe!). I may even get my Bob Harper video out so he can kick my butt into gear! His video does it all....major cardio and muscle building!
Reward days: Treat myself without going overboard. This will be the day that I can take care of my sweet tooth, have a bowl of pasta, etc. These will be non-exercise days. I do have one rule, though. No treats during or after dinner. If I treat myself, it will have to be at either breakfast or lunch. No sugary treats at night!
So, there it is. This is where I'm starting. I hope this plan works for me, but I am prepared to play around with it and find what works best for me. I'm hoping this will be the answer to my low carb prayers, lol. Seriously, I think this would be a good balance of low carb without feeling so deprived all the time. I also think it's a lot healthier than all of my other low carb endeavors.
Until next time...
So, I've been considering trying Carb Cycling for some time now. Chris Powell (from Extreme Weight Loss) uses this method with his clients. His clients seem to drop massive amounts of weight. It seems to work.
Here is a link to an article he wrote on carb cycling http://chrispowell.com/carb-cycling-101/
I'm no stranger to eating low carb. I've done it on and off for years. I seem to do well with it, but the problem lies with making it a lifestyle. There can be long term effects of a prolonged low carb diet. While it does get the weight off, there are other things to consider.
With low carb diets (especially Atkins, where you consume high amounts of protein and fat and very little fiber), there can be quite a few long term effects. Heart disease, malnutrition, vitamin deficiencies, digestive diseases, organ damage, and cancer risk (specifically, colon cancer) are a few. I recently read that certain low carb diets can also cause diabetes and pre-diabetes to worsen because of the high fat consumption.
I don't think all low carb diets are bad for us. It all depends on what your low carb diet consists of. In the past, I have used the Atkins diet for most of my low carbing. As I'm researching, I'm finding that Atkins has the most damaging effects. Too much fat and too much protein aren't good for us. It's probably much safer to focus on LEAN meats and get most of our carbs from green vegetables or fruit.
I'm thinking that carb cycling wouldn't have all those long term effects since you would be having a few high carb days each week. The idea is to eat high carb on workout days and low carb on non-workout days. I'm sure it will be trial and error until I find a carb ratio that works for me.
In the article that I linked above, Chris lists 4 different carb cycles you can choose from. My plan is to try the Turbo Plan. That means, 2 low carb days followed by 1 high carb day. Repeat. Then a reward day. Then it starts all over again. I'm not sure if I'll do a reward day EVERY week, but I will probably do it every now and then.
So, here's my carb cycling details:
Low carb days: 20-25 grams of TOTAL carbs. Mostly lean meats and green vegetables. Exercise will be limited to walking only.
High carb days: No more than 75 grams of HEALTHY carbs. Mostly from fruit, vegetables and whole grains....such as quinoa, brown rice, whole grain bread, etc. Exercise will consist of cardio (like walking and running intervals) and muscle building (like lifting weights, doing squats, burpees (which I loathe!). I may even get my Bob Harper video out so he can kick my butt into gear! His video does it all....major cardio and muscle building!
Reward days: Treat myself without going overboard. This will be the day that I can take care of my sweet tooth, have a bowl of pasta, etc. These will be non-exercise days. I do have one rule, though. No treats during or after dinner. If I treat myself, it will have to be at either breakfast or lunch. No sugary treats at night!
So, there it is. This is where I'm starting. I hope this plan works for me, but I am prepared to play around with it and find what works best for me. I'm hoping this will be the answer to my low carb prayers, lol. Seriously, I think this would be a good balance of low carb without feeling so deprived all the time. I also think it's a lot healthier than all of my other low carb endeavors.
Until next time...
Monday, August 19, 2013
Thursday, August 15, 2013
The Monthy Visitor That We All Hate.
Hello, friends! Things have been pretty awesome since my last post. I have been staying away from sugar, artificial sweeteners, eating lots of lean meat and fresh fruits and veggies.
And then there's this week. Well, it's been far from awesome. School started back and I got a visit from an unwanted visitor. We'll call him TOM. TOM messes everything up. TOM makes me moody, angry, unstable, gives me headaches, makes my stomach hurt, etc. Oh, and let's not forget, TOM makes me want to eat everything in my freaking sight! TOM sucks. Big time.
And then there's this week. Well, it's been far from awesome. School started back and I got a visit from an unwanted visitor. We'll call him TOM. TOM messes everything up. TOM makes me moody, angry, unstable, gives me headaches, makes my stomach hurt, etc. Oh, and let's not forget, TOM makes me want to eat everything in my freaking sight! TOM sucks. Big time.
Only a couple of more day, only a couple of more days, only a couple of more days....
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
One Step Forward, Two Steps Back.
One step forward, two steps back.
I told you guys that I was seeing an Endocrinologist. I had some blood tests done last week and I met with the doctor about the results. I was sure that my Vitamin D levels had come down, but to my surprise they actually went up a little. I'm thinking "Whooo Hooo!". Then she tells me the results from the other tests and it was not-so-good news. *sigh*
Apparently, I have one the worst metabolisms of all her patients. Her words were "I have very few patients with a metabolism like yours." Not really sure how she came to that conclusion, but alrighty then. They took A LOT of blood last week, so I'm guessing quite a few things factored into it. My insulin levels were 3 points away from being classified as Diabetic. What?!?! I've been making a lot of effort to cut down on my portions and I thought I was doing pretty good. Unfortunately, she said that reducing my portions wouldn't help that much. A person with a normal metabolism could cut back on their portions and lose weight just fine, but mine isn't anywhere near normal. She put me on Glumetza and told me that I had to make some serious dietary changes to prevent Diabetes.
Changes I am going to have to make:
1. No sugar (obviously)
2. No artificial sweeteners (how the heck am I going to drink coffee now?!?!)
3. No bread, noodles, etc.
4. More exercise (another obvious point)
5. No processed food
6. No fast food and she even went on to say that eating out, in general, wasn't a good idea for now.
Lots of changes. Basically, my menu will consist of lean meat, fresh veggies, and fresh fruit only....staying as "natural" as I can.
I think she spent more time talking about artificial sweeteners than anything. Studies are showing that artificial sweeteners may even play a role in developing diabetes. They also make you crave real sugar even more. I really don't use them that often, but I had gotten back in the habit of buying SF coffee creamer again.
I am too young to be borderline Diabetic! She definitely scared me into making some serious changes. I have too much to live for to risk my health and my life like this!
I would appreciate your prayers and thoughts as I take on this new lifestyle. It's going to be hard. I know that I can do it if I set my mind to it. KEEPING my mind set will be the hardest part.
One step forward, two steps back.
I look forward to taking some GIGANTIC leaps forward in the coming days. I can do it!!
I told you guys that I was seeing an Endocrinologist. I had some blood tests done last week and I met with the doctor about the results. I was sure that my Vitamin D levels had come down, but to my surprise they actually went up a little. I'm thinking "Whooo Hooo!". Then she tells me the results from the other tests and it was not-so-good news. *sigh*
Apparently, I have one the worst metabolisms of all her patients. Her words were "I have very few patients with a metabolism like yours." Not really sure how she came to that conclusion, but alrighty then. They took A LOT of blood last week, so I'm guessing quite a few things factored into it. My insulin levels were 3 points away from being classified as Diabetic. What?!?! I've been making a lot of effort to cut down on my portions and I thought I was doing pretty good. Unfortunately, she said that reducing my portions wouldn't help that much. A person with a normal metabolism could cut back on their portions and lose weight just fine, but mine isn't anywhere near normal. She put me on Glumetza and told me that I had to make some serious dietary changes to prevent Diabetes.
Changes I am going to have to make:
1. No sugar (obviously)
2. No artificial sweeteners (how the heck am I going to drink coffee now?!?!)
3. No bread, noodles, etc.
4. More exercise (another obvious point)
5. No processed food
6. No fast food and she even went on to say that eating out, in general, wasn't a good idea for now.
Lots of changes. Basically, my menu will consist of lean meat, fresh veggies, and fresh fruit only....staying as "natural" as I can.
I think she spent more time talking about artificial sweeteners than anything. Studies are showing that artificial sweeteners may even play a role in developing diabetes. They also make you crave real sugar even more. I really don't use them that often, but I had gotten back in the habit of buying SF coffee creamer again.
I am too young to be borderline Diabetic! She definitely scared me into making some serious changes. I have too much to live for to risk my health and my life like this!
I would appreciate your prayers and thoughts as I take on this new lifestyle. It's going to be hard. I know that I can do it if I set my mind to it. KEEPING my mind set will be the hardest part.
One step forward, two steps back.
I look forward to taking some GIGANTIC leaps forward in the coming days. I can do it!!
Monday, July 15, 2013
Bust a Move
I've been a busy girl the past week or so. My son went on vacation with his Papa & Nana, so we've been child-less for last 5 days. Thank goodness he came back today! I was missing that boy so much! Despite having a rough couple of days due to double ear infections, I was able to accomplish a lot.
My goal for this month is to MOVE. It doesn't matter why or how, I just want to move more and boy did I. My husband and I went to Tallahassee (or Tally as we call it) on Thursday and we shopped out hearts out. My husband was a trooper, too. I had him taking me all over the place! I wouldn't call myself a regular shopper....normally I hate shopping. But, every once in a while I get the urge to change things up at my house and shop for new home decor. This was one of those times. I was on a mission! I mainly wanted to get our bookcase with school supplies organized. I wanted it to look pretty and not like a mess of books thrown every which way. I got my organization supplies at Target, then we headed to the mall. I forgot how big that mall was and we walked every inch of it. So we definitely got our exercise in!
I also wanted to spruce up our dining room. Now, we live in a pretty small apartment, so the term "dining room" isn't really accurate. "Dining Area" might be a better term. It's a very small space between the living room and kitchen. I wanted to make it look bigger and prettier. Before, we had a couple of pictures hanging above the table and chairs and that's it. Nothing on the table. It was very blah.
I found a pretty table runner and flower centerpiece at Kirkland's. They had a huge sale and I was able to get them both pretty cheap, along with a new shower curtain and a new ceramic owl. (I love owls!) I also remembered seeing something cool on Pinterest with cheap full length mirrors hung horizontally on a wall. So I picked up 3 mirrors from Walmart ($5.00 each!) and I hung them with Command strips on the "dining area" wall. Yes, I did it myself! My husband didn't think I could so I had to prove him wrong! Getting them straight was not an easy task. I love how it turned out and it really did make the area look bigger.
Close-up of the runner and centerpiece.
The total package.
The mirrors made all the difference. It's still a really small space, but the mirrors trick the eye into thinking it's a little bigger.
I also rearranged the house while my son was gone. I had to do something to pass the time!
Although I didn't do any typical workouts, I busted my booty around the house and walked my little heart out shopping. I'm sure I burned a ton of calories. Exercise doesn't have to be- walking on the treadmill, lifting weights, or going to the gym- it can be anything that gets us moving and sweating!
I hope you are MOVING, as well. Do whatever you can to get your daily burn. Your heart will thank you :)
Until next time...
My goal for this month is to MOVE. It doesn't matter why or how, I just want to move more and boy did I. My husband and I went to Tallahassee (or Tally as we call it) on Thursday and we shopped out hearts out. My husband was a trooper, too. I had him taking me all over the place! I wouldn't call myself a regular shopper....normally I hate shopping. But, every once in a while I get the urge to change things up at my house and shop for new home decor. This was one of those times. I was on a mission! I mainly wanted to get our bookcase with school supplies organized. I wanted it to look pretty and not like a mess of books thrown every which way. I got my organization supplies at Target, then we headed to the mall. I forgot how big that mall was and we walked every inch of it. So we definitely got our exercise in!
I also wanted to spruce up our dining room. Now, we live in a pretty small apartment, so the term "dining room" isn't really accurate. "Dining Area" might be a better term. It's a very small space between the living room and kitchen. I wanted to make it look bigger and prettier. Before, we had a couple of pictures hanging above the table and chairs and that's it. Nothing on the table. It was very blah.
I found a pretty table runner and flower centerpiece at Kirkland's. They had a huge sale and I was able to get them both pretty cheap, along with a new shower curtain and a new ceramic owl. (I love owls!) I also remembered seeing something cool on Pinterest with cheap full length mirrors hung horizontally on a wall. So I picked up 3 mirrors from Walmart ($5.00 each!) and I hung them with Command strips on the "dining area" wall. Yes, I did it myself! My husband didn't think I could so I had to prove him wrong! Getting them straight was not an easy task. I love how it turned out and it really did make the area look bigger.
Close-up of the runner and centerpiece.
The total package.
The mirrors made all the difference. It's still a really small space, but the mirrors trick the eye into thinking it's a little bigger.
I also rearranged the house while my son was gone. I had to do something to pass the time!
Although I didn't do any typical workouts, I busted my booty around the house and walked my little heart out shopping. I'm sure I burned a ton of calories. Exercise doesn't have to be- walking on the treadmill, lifting weights, or going to the gym- it can be anything that gets us moving and sweating!
I hope you are MOVING, as well. Do whatever you can to get your daily burn. Your heart will thank you :)
Until next time...
Monday, July 8, 2013
July Challenge
Hello, friends! I hope all of you are enjoying yourselves this summer.
Last month's challenge was NO SNACKING AFTER DINNER. While I wasn't perfect, I can confidently say that I greatly improved on this issue. That's what it's all about for me...making progress. Picking myself up when I disappoint myself and getting back on track. Learning that perfection doesn't exist and dealing with the failures that often come with aspirations.
My challenge for July is going to be......to MOVE more! While it's not a detailed challenge, it's still a good challenge. Especially since I've been sitting on my butt a lot since summer started. I've set a goal of 7,500 steps per day. Not a whole lot, I know, but it's a start. Especially considering I am at home all day.
I just got an UP wristband by Jawbone and so far I really like it. I'll put a link at the bottom of the post for anyone interested in learning what it is. Hopefully, it will aid in motivating me to move more.
What will you challenge yourself to do this month?
Challenges don't have to be just physical. Mental and emotional challenges are equally important in trying to get healthy. Pick something you really need to work on and go with it.
Good luck with whatever you decide to challenge yourself with this month! You can do it!
Until next time....
Oh, here's the link for the UP wristband.... https://jawbone.com/up
Last month's challenge was NO SNACKING AFTER DINNER. While I wasn't perfect, I can confidently say that I greatly improved on this issue. That's what it's all about for me...making progress. Picking myself up when I disappoint myself and getting back on track. Learning that perfection doesn't exist and dealing with the failures that often come with aspirations.
My challenge for July is going to be......to MOVE more! While it's not a detailed challenge, it's still a good challenge. Especially since I've been sitting on my butt a lot since summer started. I've set a goal of 7,500 steps per day. Not a whole lot, I know, but it's a start. Especially considering I am at home all day.
I just got an UP wristband by Jawbone and so far I really like it. I'll put a link at the bottom of the post for anyone interested in learning what it is. Hopefully, it will aid in motivating me to move more.
What will you challenge yourself to do this month?
Challenges don't have to be just physical. Mental and emotional challenges are equally important in trying to get healthy. Pick something you really need to work on and go with it.
Good luck with whatever you decide to challenge yourself with this month! You can do it!
Until next time....
Oh, here's the link for the UP wristband.... https://jawbone.com/up
Saturday, July 6, 2013
Summer Craftiness
Summer is here! Although I hate the summer heat, the gnats, and mosquitoes, I love having the summer off. It gives me more time to craft, paint, and be creative. I don't have much time for that during the school year, so it's nice.
I just finished making a wreath for my front door. I've been wanting to spruce up our "front porch" area for a while now. I say "front porch" like this because it's not really a porch. It's a front door and a little bit of space around it. I bought a cute little plant stand and some potted flowers to go beside the door. I'm hoping to get some sort of small table and a couple of chairs to go on the other side of the door as well. I'll try to post a picture of the total package when I get it finished. For now, I'll just show you the wreath I made.
It's simple, pretty, and was very easy to make. It took me all of about 30 minutes to make. I just bought a simple grapevine wreath, 3 artificial hydrangeas, a wooden "M", and little ribbon. I painted the "M" the same color green as the ribbon (or pretty close, anyway) and used brown paint and a pencil eraser to paint the polka dots on. While that was drying, I hot glued the flowers into place. Then hot glued the "M" on and measured and cut the ribbon. I wanted to make sure I could still see out of the peep hole, so I measured to make sure it didn't hang to low. I tied the ribbon and voila.....a new wreath. I'm very pleased with the way it turned out.
I am really looking forward to doing more crafty stuff this summer.
I also got a much needed haircut the other day. I swear....it was getting so freaking long. We could have made a wig out of all the hair that was cut off. She cut lots of layers and it feels so much better. Long hair and Georgia summers do not make a good combination.
It's still pretty long, but so much shorter than it was. It's much easier to deal with now.
Thanks for reading. Hope you all are having a great summer!
Until next time...
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
For All The Butter Lovers Out There...
What do you prefer? Fake butter spray or the real thing? Real sugar or artificial sweetener?
I made a grilled turkey, cheese, and tomato sandwich for lunch today, which was delicious by the way. I was about to spray my bread with "I Can't Believe It's Not Butter Spray", and I just couldn't do it. The REAL butter was calling out to me from the refrigerator. And it was so worth the extra calories.
I tend to side with Paula Deen.
Well, not completely. Yeah, she could take a few lessons in using butter in moderation, but she's right. Butter is just better!
I think I've gotten to the point in my life where I've realized that the "fake" stuff just doesn't cut it. I don't buy into the bull about it being better for us anymore. I've spent my whole life going about this all wrong. Sometimes I catch myself going for the "diet food" out of pure habit. I really believe that a lot of these so-called diet foods leave me being more hungry than I was before I ate it. Or it could be that it just increases cravings. Either way, it's not working for me. I'm having to re-train my brain and it's not easy to do. Real food, real ingredients, in moderation, is what I want to focus on.
Now, I'm not suggesting that we make homemade brownies using 4 sticks of butter. But if we want a grilled cheese sandwich or a slice of toast, I think it's okay to use a little butter.
So, what do you think? Does using the fake diet stuff and saving calories justify sacrificing flavor and adding the extra chemicals and additives to your body?
It's an interesting topic to me. In a world where there is a "healthy" lower calorie alternative for just about everything, where do you stand on the topic?
I know this whole butter topic is kind of random, but that's what was on my mind today. On a funny note, I can't get enough of all the Paula Deen Butter jokes. Here's a few of my favorites on Pinterest....
Happy Hump Day, everyone!
I made a grilled turkey, cheese, and tomato sandwich for lunch today, which was delicious by the way. I was about to spray my bread with "I Can't Believe It's Not Butter Spray", and I just couldn't do it. The REAL butter was calling out to me from the refrigerator. And it was so worth the extra calories.
I tend to side with Paula Deen.
Well, not completely. Yeah, she could take a few lessons in using butter in moderation, but she's right. Butter is just better!
I think I've gotten to the point in my life where I've realized that the "fake" stuff just doesn't cut it. I don't buy into the bull about it being better for us anymore. I've spent my whole life going about this all wrong. Sometimes I catch myself going for the "diet food" out of pure habit. I really believe that a lot of these so-called diet foods leave me being more hungry than I was before I ate it. Or it could be that it just increases cravings. Either way, it's not working for me. I'm having to re-train my brain and it's not easy to do. Real food, real ingredients, in moderation, is what I want to focus on.
Now, I'm not suggesting that we make homemade brownies using 4 sticks of butter. But if we want a grilled cheese sandwich or a slice of toast, I think it's okay to use a little butter.
So, what do you think? Does using the fake diet stuff and saving calories justify sacrificing flavor and adding the extra chemicals and additives to your body?
It's an interesting topic to me. In a world where there is a "healthy" lower calorie alternative for just about everything, where do you stand on the topic?
I know this whole butter topic is kind of random, but that's what was on my mind today. On a funny note, I can't get enough of all the Paula Deen Butter jokes. Here's a few of my favorites on Pinterest....
Happy Hump Day, everyone!
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Day 4
Okay, so I must confess....I ate some food today. I couldn't handle the headaches anymore. BUT, I did eat something healthy. I made a vegetable salad that was so good!
Organic black beans, organic corn, fresh diced tomatoes, and diced avocados in a homemade balsamic olive oil dressing. I think I needed some protein and healthy fats.
I am not going to look at it as a failure. I made it 3 days with almost nothing but fresh juice. I am proud of myself. I'm just adding in the micronutrient foods a little earlier than I originally planned. If I ever decide to do a juice detox again, I'll know not to go into it cold turkey. I think if I had changed up my diet to mostly micronutrient foods the week before, it wouldn't have been such a hard adjustment.
I am still going to be juicing at least twice a day, though. I would really like to have juice for breakfast, eat a healthy lunch and afternoon snack, and have juice again for dinner. Nighttime is when I am most hungry, so I don't know if that will work but I'm going to try it.
So, now that I'm done with the "detox" part, it's time to start back adding in some exercise. I have thought about trying to find some yoga videos that are basic (very basic) and starting with that. I need to start slow. So if anyone knows of a good yoga video for beginners, please let me know.
My son and I have been making tent forts today and it's time to get back in the tent and play. I hope everyone enjoys the rest of their week! Make the most of it.....we're not guaranteed tomorrow.
Peace and love to all :)
Organic black beans, organic corn, fresh diced tomatoes, and diced avocados in a homemade balsamic olive oil dressing. I think I needed some protein and healthy fats.
I am not going to look at it as a failure. I made it 3 days with almost nothing but fresh juice. I am proud of myself. I'm just adding in the micronutrient foods a little earlier than I originally planned. If I ever decide to do a juice detox again, I'll know not to go into it cold turkey. I think if I had changed up my diet to mostly micronutrient foods the week before, it wouldn't have been such a hard adjustment.
I am still going to be juicing at least twice a day, though. I would really like to have juice for breakfast, eat a healthy lunch and afternoon snack, and have juice again for dinner. Nighttime is when I am most hungry, so I don't know if that will work but I'm going to try it.
So, now that I'm done with the "detox" part, it's time to start back adding in some exercise. I have thought about trying to find some yoga videos that are basic (very basic) and starting with that. I need to start slow. So if anyone knows of a good yoga video for beginners, please let me know.
My son and I have been making tent forts today and it's time to get back in the tent and play. I hope everyone enjoys the rest of their week! Make the most of it.....we're not guaranteed tomorrow.
Peace and love to all :)
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Detox: Day 3
Day 3....wait, only day 3?
Honestly, it feels like it's been much longer.
This has been hard. The first day wasn't that bad, but yesterday was really hard and today is a hard one, too. I still feel a little foggy and have a headache. I think the headaches could be partly from having no caffeine. I usually drink 4 cups of coffee a day (I know, that's A LOT!) and I haven't had coffee since Sunday.
Yesterday, I ended up drinking 2 juice meals, eating a fresh peach for snack, and I ate some watermelon and an avocado last night. I think it helped to actually eat some food. It is unlikely that I will be able to detox for the whole 10 days. I think I was a tad ambitious with that number. This has been a lot harder than I thought it would be! I'm thinking I may detox for another 2 days (for a total of 5 days), then starting adding in some beans and nuts. I probably won't cut out meat completely, but I am definitely not going to be eating it everyday.
My plan is to consume a diet that is:
Low in saturated fat and cholesterol (animal products)
Moderate in whole grains, nuts, and seeds (plant foods)
High in vegetables, fruits, and beans (plant foods)
I feel like this is a healthy plan. After all, HEALTHY is what I'm aiming for.
So, 2 more days! I can do it! I can do it!
Until tomorrow....
Honestly, it feels like it's been much longer.
This has been hard. The first day wasn't that bad, but yesterday was really hard and today is a hard one, too. I still feel a little foggy and have a headache. I think the headaches could be partly from having no caffeine. I usually drink 4 cups of coffee a day (I know, that's A LOT!) and I haven't had coffee since Sunday.
Yesterday, I ended up drinking 2 juice meals, eating a fresh peach for snack, and I ate some watermelon and an avocado last night. I think it helped to actually eat some food. It is unlikely that I will be able to detox for the whole 10 days. I think I was a tad ambitious with that number. This has been a lot harder than I thought it would be! I'm thinking I may detox for another 2 days (for a total of 5 days), then starting adding in some beans and nuts. I probably won't cut out meat completely, but I am definitely not going to be eating it everyday.
My plan is to consume a diet that is:
I feel like this is a healthy plan. After all, HEALTHY is what I'm aiming for.
So, 2 more days! I can do it! I can do it!
Until tomorrow....
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Detox: Day 2
Hi there, folks.
Well, I made it though Day 1. I only had juice until about 9 or 10 o'clock. I got pretty hungry so I sliced up a tomato and ate it. That was the only solid food I had yesterday. For the most part, I felt pretty good throughout Day 1 after my headache subsided. And I wasn't near as hungry as I thought I would be.
Today, on the other hand, isn't going quite as well. I have a headache, again. My head feels foggy and I'm kind of in a daze. Nonetheless, I'm still chugging along and sticking to it. Maybe this hazy, foggy feeling won't hang around very long.
I did have a pretty nice surprise when I stepped on the scale this morning, though. I dropped a whopping 5 lbs since yesterday!! Whooo Hoooo!
I'm not my usual self, so that's all I have for today. Sorry to be so short but I'm finding it hard to concentrate and focus. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Well, I made it though Day 1. I only had juice until about 9 or 10 o'clock. I got pretty hungry so I sliced up a tomato and ate it. That was the only solid food I had yesterday. For the most part, I felt pretty good throughout Day 1 after my headache subsided. And I wasn't near as hungry as I thought I would be.
Today, on the other hand, isn't going quite as well. I have a headache, again. My head feels foggy and I'm kind of in a daze. Nonetheless, I'm still chugging along and sticking to it. Maybe this hazy, foggy feeling won't hang around very long.
I did have a pretty nice surprise when I stepped on the scale this morning, though. I dropped a whopping 5 lbs since yesterday!! Whooo Hoooo!
I'm not my usual self, so that's all I have for today. Sorry to be so short but I'm finding it hard to concentrate and focus. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Monday, May 20, 2013
Detox: Day 1
Well.....today's the day. Day 1 of my detox!
My day didn't start off that great though. I woke up with a killer headache this morning. Took some Excedrin Migraine and it has gotten better. It's bearable now. Definitely NOT how I wanted to start off the first day of my detox, but it is what it is and I'm committed to seeing this through.
After my headache subsided, I got in the kitchen and started preparing for my morning juice. Fresh Carrot-Apple Juice! It's pretty tasty, if you ask me :)
This one was strictly carrots and apples. I will start adding in green veggies, like kale and spinach, as the day goes on. I am going to try to do just juice today and see how it goes. If I see that I really need something, I'll eat some fresh veggies or something.
Even though the primary focus of this detox isn't weight loss, I did weigh myself this morning. Yowza!! Let's just say that it was a tad more than I thought it would be. "Tad" being code for "A LOT"! This detox is more about cleansing my body, but I'm still hoping for some weight loss. I'll try to post weight loss stats each day when I update.
Tomorrow I'll be able to write more and give more details about how my first day went. If everything I've read about detoxing is correct, the first 3-4 days will be rough. It should start to get better after that.
That's all I have for today. Keep me in thoughts and prayers as I am going through this. I have a feeling this will be harder, mentally, than physically.
My day didn't start off that great though. I woke up with a killer headache this morning. Took some Excedrin Migraine and it has gotten better. It's bearable now. Definitely NOT how I wanted to start off the first day of my detox, but it is what it is and I'm committed to seeing this through.
After my headache subsided, I got in the kitchen and started preparing for my morning juice. Fresh Carrot-Apple Juice! It's pretty tasty, if you ask me :)
This one was strictly carrots and apples. I will start adding in green veggies, like kale and spinach, as the day goes on. I am going to try to do just juice today and see how it goes. If I see that I really need something, I'll eat some fresh veggies or something.
Even though the primary focus of this detox isn't weight loss, I did weigh myself this morning. Yowza!! Let's just say that it was a tad more than I thought it would be. "Tad" being code for "A LOT"! This detox is more about cleansing my body, but I'm still hoping for some weight loss. I'll try to post weight loss stats each day when I update.
Tomorrow I'll be able to write more and give more details about how my first day went. If everything I've read about detoxing is correct, the first 3-4 days will be rough. It should start to get better after that.
That's all I have for today. Keep me in thoughts and prayers as I am going through this. I have a feeling this will be harder, mentally, than physically.
Friday, May 10, 2013
We Are What We Eat
The older I get, the more I realize that I have been going about weight loss all wrong. Our society has been trained to think that calories-in vs. calories-out is the only way to lose weight. I'm not saying that the idea behind this is wrong, but think about it for a minute. Yes, restricting calories and increasing exercise will most always result in weight loss. But I think we've been going about it all wrong. From an early age, I was pretty much brainwashed into thinking that "diet food" was the way to go. Commercials and ads can be very convincing. They convince us that it's okay to drink soda....as long it's diet. That you can go grocery shopping and as long as it says "sugar free" or "light", it's okay. It's low calorie and that's all that matters, right? No. We've traded in good, healthy nutritious foods for chemically altered "diet food". No matter how much weight we lose by consuming these foods, are we really doing our bodies any good in the long run? I'm not an expert in nutrition, but it doesn't take one to realize that our nation consumes WAY too much sugar, WAY too much artificial sweeteners, and WAY too much processed and chemically altered food. And, for the most part, we think it's okay. It's convenient and it's cheap. If I looked like the food I ate, I would have a Doritos bag as my body, a donut for a head, pasta noodles for arms and legs (and not the thin noodles...the thickest noodles out there), and biscuits for boobies. Sounds funny, but it's true. We are what we eat. I eat crappy food and most of the time, I feel crappy.
I've done everything from Low Carb to Weight Watchers and I've had success with both. Temporary success, that is. We get in our minds that the numbers are the only thing that matters. While it works for a while, who wants to be counting calories and measuring their food for the rest of their life? Not me. I think we should focusing LESS on the numbers and MORE on the quality of food we put in our bodies and amount of physical activity in our daily lives. Sounds simple, but it's hard to do.
I've been dabbling with the idea of doing a detox for a while now and I've made up my mind that I'm going to do it. Although I would love to do a full-on juice detox (juice made from my own juicer of fresh organic fruits and vegetables only), I'm not going to go that hardcore yet. My plan is do 2-3 juices per day, but also eat some organic vegetables and fruit throughout the day as well. I plan to do it for at least 10 days and I plan to do daily blog updates during this. After the detox, I plan to eat as clean as I possibly can. I also plan to start some sort of training....not exactly sure what, yet. I'm still trying to decide what I want to work towards. Eat clean, train dirty.
I'm not going to start the detox until May 20th. I have 3-4 events that I have to go to next week (all including meals) and I want to make sure I start this with a clear schedule so I can focus all my energy and attention on the detox.
It's going to be hard. But I'm hoping the benefits will far outweigh the hardships and frustration through this. I'm hoping to get migraine/headache relief. I'm hoping to get more energy. I'm hoping I will be able to get off my BP medicine. I'm hoping to get a jump start on migrating to a TRUE healthy lifestyle.
This week along, I've had 4 really bad headaches. Chronic headaches are for the birds. I can't take it anymore. So as I approach this, I would appreciate your thoughts, prayers, and support. I am dying for change in my life and I desperately need to make it.
Food for thought: If you had to describe yourself only by the foods you most often eat....what would you look like? Are you happy with that description?
I've done everything from Low Carb to Weight Watchers and I've had success with both. Temporary success, that is. We get in our minds that the numbers are the only thing that matters. While it works for a while, who wants to be counting calories and measuring their food for the rest of their life? Not me. I think we should focusing LESS on the numbers and MORE on the quality of food we put in our bodies and amount of physical activity in our daily lives. Sounds simple, but it's hard to do.
I've been dabbling with the idea of doing a detox for a while now and I've made up my mind that I'm going to do it. Although I would love to do a full-on juice detox (juice made from my own juicer of fresh organic fruits and vegetables only), I'm not going to go that hardcore yet. My plan is do 2-3 juices per day, but also eat some organic vegetables and fruit throughout the day as well. I plan to do it for at least 10 days and I plan to do daily blog updates during this. After the detox, I plan to eat as clean as I possibly can. I also plan to start some sort of training....not exactly sure what, yet. I'm still trying to decide what I want to work towards. Eat clean, train dirty.
I'm not going to start the detox until May 20th. I have 3-4 events that I have to go to next week (all including meals) and I want to make sure I start this with a clear schedule so I can focus all my energy and attention on the detox.
It's going to be hard. But I'm hoping the benefits will far outweigh the hardships and frustration through this. I'm hoping to get migraine/headache relief. I'm hoping to get more energy. I'm hoping I will be able to get off my BP medicine. I'm hoping to get a jump start on migrating to a TRUE healthy lifestyle.
This week along, I've had 4 really bad headaches. Chronic headaches are for the birds. I can't take it anymore. So as I approach this, I would appreciate your thoughts, prayers, and support. I am dying for change in my life and I desperately need to make it.
Food for thought: If you had to describe yourself only by the foods you most often eat....what would you look like? Are you happy with that description?
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Lead The Fight On
I have a few updates on my health, but I will post about them later.
This has been a rough week for America. First, the bombing in Boston. Then the explosion in Texas. I don't even know what to say. I'm so saddened and at a loss of words for what has happened. One thing I turn to when I'm upset or sad is music. I have a certain song on repeat this week. He Is We released an acoustic version of one of their new songs called Lead The Fight On. I am so glad there are artists out there who want to make a difference in this world. Who aren't afraid to stand up for what they believe in. Who aren't afraid to bring up issues like bullying, suicide, and violence. Artists who want to make this world a better place. I'm a fan and I love this song. I think it says a lot. No matter what it is you are fighting for, lead the fight on.
Here's the lyric video for the song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=9Zq2MgJsR9w
If you like the song, here's a link to download it for free.
http://www.purevolume.com/news/Free-Song-of-the-Day-He-Is-Wes-Lead-The-Fight-On-Acoustic
That's all I have for today. I've just been praying and thinking about those that lost their lives and those that were injured. I'm in awe of all the hero's out their that put their lives at risk to help out complete strangers.
Peace.
This has been a rough week for America. First, the bombing in Boston. Then the explosion in Texas. I don't even know what to say. I'm so saddened and at a loss of words for what has happened. One thing I turn to when I'm upset or sad is music. I have a certain song on repeat this week. He Is We released an acoustic version of one of their new songs called Lead The Fight On. I am so glad there are artists out there who want to make a difference in this world. Who aren't afraid to stand up for what they believe in. Who aren't afraid to bring up issues like bullying, suicide, and violence. Artists who want to make this world a better place. I'm a fan and I love this song. I think it says a lot. No matter what it is you are fighting for, lead the fight on.
Here's the lyric video for the song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=9Zq2MgJsR9w
If you like the song, here's a link to download it for free.
http://www.purevolume.com/news/Free-Song-of-the-Day-He-Is-Wes-Lead-The-Fight-On-Acoustic
That's all I have for today. I've just been praying and thinking about those that lost their lives and those that were injured. I'm in awe of all the hero's out their that put their lives at risk to help out complete strangers.
Peace.
Saturday, April 13, 2013
Fun Times....Oh, How I've Missed You :)
Hello, friends!
Hope you're all doing well. Me? I'm doing great! I've been feeling much better, lately. My energy has been up. Overall....I'm feeling pretty darn good.
I have an MRI and MRA scheduled for tomorrow. I'm a little nervous about it, but I'm ready to go and get it over with. Hopefully nothing shows up and everything is perfectly normal.
Lately, I've been feeling like a different person. Happy. Like a happy person. I've gotta say....I like this feeling. I've missed it.
This past month, I've done some exciting things. I went to a Maroon 5 concert a couple of weeks ago and had a fabulous time! I'm definitely a "concert person". I loved every second of it. Had the time of my life! And let's face it....who wouldn't enjoy being a couple of feet away from Adam Levine? Anyone? I didn't think so. Here's my favorite picture I took.
We were so close that we could have touched him. Unfortunately, he didn't touch anyone. Maybe he's a germophobe? If so, I can relate a little.
Anyway....it was a blast!
Also, I just got back from a short little vacation with my husband and my son. It was so good to get away. Nothing extravagant. Just a simple little get-away. We went to the Jacksonville Zoo, the Museum of Science and History, and a Pirate Museum (which my son loved!).
We also went to this little diner in Jacksonville called The Metro Diner. It was featured on Diners, Drive-ins and Dives. It was delicious! I had Chicken and Waffles and let me tell you....it was the best thing I've ever tasted. Insanely good! I don't eat a whole lot of meat anymore, but I would that chicken everyday!
We actually ate out so much on vacation that I felt sick when I got home. I've been doing a lot of juicing since we got home. After all that food.....I needed a detox!
So, that's what I've been up to.
Until next time...
Hope you're all doing well. Me? I'm doing great! I've been feeling much better, lately. My energy has been up. Overall....I'm feeling pretty darn good.
I have an MRI and MRA scheduled for tomorrow. I'm a little nervous about it, but I'm ready to go and get it over with. Hopefully nothing shows up and everything is perfectly normal.
Lately, I've been feeling like a different person. Happy. Like a happy person. I've gotta say....I like this feeling. I've missed it.
This past month, I've done some exciting things. I went to a Maroon 5 concert a couple of weeks ago and had a fabulous time! I'm definitely a "concert person". I loved every second of it. Had the time of my life! And let's face it....who wouldn't enjoy being a couple of feet away from Adam Levine? Anyone? I didn't think so. Here's my favorite picture I took.
We were so close that we could have touched him. Unfortunately, he didn't touch anyone. Maybe he's a germophobe? If so, I can relate a little.
Anyway....it was a blast!
Also, I just got back from a short little vacation with my husband and my son. It was so good to get away. Nothing extravagant. Just a simple little get-away. We went to the Jacksonville Zoo, the Museum of Science and History, and a Pirate Museum (which my son loved!).
We also went to this little diner in Jacksonville called The Metro Diner. It was featured on Diners, Drive-ins and Dives. It was delicious! I had Chicken and Waffles and let me tell you....it was the best thing I've ever tasted. Insanely good! I don't eat a whole lot of meat anymore, but I would that chicken everyday!
We actually ate out so much on vacation that I felt sick when I got home. I've been doing a lot of juicing since we got home. After all that food.....I needed a detox!
So, that's what I've been up to.
Until next time...
Friday, March 22, 2013
New Blog Title?
Hello, my friends! I hope you all have been doing well.
Some quick updates....
I have been feeling a bit better, for the most part. I've increased my OTC Vitamin D dosage a bit and added 2,500 mcg of B12 as well. I can tell a big difference. Not sure if it's because of the Vitamin D increase or adding the B12, or both. It really doesn't matter because it's working. So as long as it's helping, I don't care. I've been working with 10 lb weights at home to build some strength and it's been going well.
I have been having some weird head pains and strange sensations on the left side of my head so I have an appointment with a Neurologist on Monday. I'm excited about going! Maybe I'll get some answers soon.
I decided to join Weight Watchers (online). I've been doing it for about a week and it's going very well. Maybe the structure of a balanced program is what I need. I still worry about my "All or Nothing" complex and I'm working through it. I decided that I'll allow myself ONE day per week to eat whatever I want. No counting, no worrying, and no guilt. If I don't allow something like this, it won't work. I know myself well enough to admit that if I don't, I'll eventually go on a binging spree and it will just be a downward spiral from there. To be clear though, my "free day" doesn't mean I'll go and stuff myself full of junk. It just means that if I decide I want to have a slice of pie after dinner, or pasta for dinner....I will. I will still make my best effort to maintain moderation.
Okay, on to the main point of my post.
I think my blog needs a new name. I started this with a completely different idea for my blog basis. Over the past several months, things have come up. Health issues, mainly. While I still want to incorporate some crafty things every now and then, that's just not where I am right now. I want a simple title that captures my journey. My journey of striving for good health. My journey has been full of physical and emotional complications. I am continually striving though. Striving to find answers, striving to find peace, striving to be a better person, striving to find self-confidence, and fighting to live the life that I deserve. Notice I said "deserve". A few months ago, I would have never said that. So, although I've had all these unexpected health issues and struggled (physically and emotionally), I have made some progress. Progress is progress and I'll take it!
So, please comment and give me ideas. I want a title that's simple, but powerful. The only one I have come up with is "A Fight Worth Fighting". I really like it, but I want to REALLY be sure about it before I change it. So, let me know what you think. Ideas are welcome!
I hope all of you beautiful people are having great Friday! It's the weekend....make the most of it!
Until next time...
Some quick updates....
I have been feeling a bit better, for the most part. I've increased my OTC Vitamin D dosage a bit and added 2,500 mcg of B12 as well. I can tell a big difference. Not sure if it's because of the Vitamin D increase or adding the B12, or both. It really doesn't matter because it's working. So as long as it's helping, I don't care. I've been working with 10 lb weights at home to build some strength and it's been going well.
I have been having some weird head pains and strange sensations on the left side of my head so I have an appointment with a Neurologist on Monday. I'm excited about going! Maybe I'll get some answers soon.
I decided to join Weight Watchers (online). I've been doing it for about a week and it's going very well. Maybe the structure of a balanced program is what I need. I still worry about my "All or Nothing" complex and I'm working through it. I decided that I'll allow myself ONE day per week to eat whatever I want. No counting, no worrying, and no guilt. If I don't allow something like this, it won't work. I know myself well enough to admit that if I don't, I'll eventually go on a binging spree and it will just be a downward spiral from there. To be clear though, my "free day" doesn't mean I'll go and stuff myself full of junk. It just means that if I decide I want to have a slice of pie after dinner, or pasta for dinner....I will. I will still make my best effort to maintain moderation.
Okay, on to the main point of my post.
I think my blog needs a new name. I started this with a completely different idea for my blog basis. Over the past several months, things have come up. Health issues, mainly. While I still want to incorporate some crafty things every now and then, that's just not where I am right now. I want a simple title that captures my journey. My journey of striving for good health. My journey has been full of physical and emotional complications. I am continually striving though. Striving to find answers, striving to find peace, striving to be a better person, striving to find self-confidence, and fighting to live the life that I deserve. Notice I said "deserve". A few months ago, I would have never said that. So, although I've had all these unexpected health issues and struggled (physically and emotionally), I have made some progress. Progress is progress and I'll take it!
So, please comment and give me ideas. I want a title that's simple, but powerful. The only one I have come up with is "A Fight Worth Fighting". I really like it, but I want to REALLY be sure about it before I change it. So, let me know what you think. Ideas are welcome!
I hope all of you beautiful people are having great Friday! It's the weekend....make the most of it!
Until next time...
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Turning Weakness Into Strength
Hello friends! Hope you are all doing well. Before I get to my "real" post, let me give some quick info about my health. I still don't have much energy, but I do feel a little better. I had my Vitamin D levels checked Tuesday and I just got word that my levels are in the low normal range. It's barely normal, but that's better than severely low. I'll take it. So, back to over-the-counter Vitamin D for now.
I told you guys that I was watching the series Prison Break. Wow!! Just wow! I just finished up the series. Seriously one of the most brilliant series. Oh, how I'm going to miss watching Michael Scofield and his beautiful mind. The characters were brilliantly written and portrayed. Even the characters that I loved to hate were brilliant. Love, love, loved it! I didn't want it to end. If you have Netflix or HuluPlus....go watch it! The last two episodes were put together and went straight to DVD and they take place during the four year difference in the finale. It answered a lot of questions and cleared things up a bit more. HuluPlus doesn't offer that one, but Netflix does. And Netflix is commercial free.
Okay, now to the real post :)
I have been doing some major soul searching lately. Most days I feel weak. Not just weak in the physical sense, also weak in spirit. It's so easy to let darkness creep in and over-take our light. Especially when there seems to be more bad than good in our lives. So, I've been in constant prayer this week, asking God "Why do I feel this way?". "Why are You allowing me to feel this way?". "How can I change it?". "What do You want me to do?". Now, I still don't know the answers to any of those questions. But what I do know is that in HIS time, He will reveal it to me. A wonderful friend sent me some e-cards this week. I fully believe that they were messages that the Lord wanted me to hear. So, do I have the answers? Nope. But I know that HE does and in His time, He will reveal it to me.
So, I asked myself, "What can I do right now, in this moment?". Well, the weakness I feel is both physical and spiritual. So, that's what I'm going to work on.
For my physical weakness, I am going to start with the basics. My plan is start lifting some weights. Simple, right? I don't have some wonderfully orchestrated plan to fix things. I'm not sure there is such a plan. But, I can start doing SOMETHING. No matter how small it seems right now, it will help. I've never been a physically weak person and I literally hate feeling weak. So, no more. Sooner or later, my physical weakness will turn into physical strength. It's just a matter of taking control and doing what needs to be done.
Now, spiritual weakness is a whole other realm of weakness. I don't really have a "plan" here. My spiritual weakness doesn't come from a lack of prayer or lack in my relationship with God. I pray daily. I do bible study daily. I truly believe in and love my God. So what is the problem? I'm not exactly sure. I do know that many thoughts and feeling (mainly negative thoughts and feeling about MYSELF) are probably somewhat responible for my spiritual weakness. Feelings of guilt, self-disgust, insecurity, no self- confidence, and no self-worth always creep in and take over. My whole life I've always felt that I wasn't "good enough". That my best wasn't good enough. I'm a perfectionist and if I can't live up to the standards that are acceptable to me.....I throw in the towel. What a lousy way to live, right? Trust me, it is. The thing that I NEED to accept is, is that no matter how much I strive to be perfect (physically and spiritually), I'll never be that way. None of us will. It's unrealistic. Unachievable. Unattainable. It's not going to happen. So, why am I this way? I don't know. Wow, being brutally honest sucks.
I did find some tips online that could help though. Here's the link. #2 is me made over.
http://ezinearticles.com/?10-Powerful-Tips-to-Improve-Self-Confidence&id=1018704
I figured I would start on #10. I love to sing and I used to have self-confidence when singing at church, but I've let it slide. God blessed me with a talent and it's time I starting being passionate about sharing it again.
So, that's it. It's a start, right?
Here's to turning weakness into strength, using pain to achieve self-worth, and fighting for a life that deserves happiness and greatness. Cheers! (Imagine me holding up a beverage of some sort.)
Until next time...
I told you guys that I was watching the series Prison Break. Wow!! Just wow! I just finished up the series. Seriously one of the most brilliant series. Oh, how I'm going to miss watching Michael Scofield and his beautiful mind. The characters were brilliantly written and portrayed. Even the characters that I loved to hate were brilliant. Love, love, loved it! I didn't want it to end. If you have Netflix or HuluPlus....go watch it! The last two episodes were put together and went straight to DVD and they take place during the four year difference in the finale. It answered a lot of questions and cleared things up a bit more. HuluPlus doesn't offer that one, but Netflix does. And Netflix is commercial free.
Okay, now to the real post :)
I have been doing some major soul searching lately. Most days I feel weak. Not just weak in the physical sense, also weak in spirit. It's so easy to let darkness creep in and over-take our light. Especially when there seems to be more bad than good in our lives. So, I've been in constant prayer this week, asking God "Why do I feel this way?". "Why are You allowing me to feel this way?". "How can I change it?". "What do You want me to do?". Now, I still don't know the answers to any of those questions. But what I do know is that in HIS time, He will reveal it to me. A wonderful friend sent me some e-cards this week. I fully believe that they were messages that the Lord wanted me to hear. So, do I have the answers? Nope. But I know that HE does and in His time, He will reveal it to me.
So, I asked myself, "What can I do right now, in this moment?". Well, the weakness I feel is both physical and spiritual. So, that's what I'm going to work on.
For my physical weakness, I am going to start with the basics. My plan is start lifting some weights. Simple, right? I don't have some wonderfully orchestrated plan to fix things. I'm not sure there is such a plan. But, I can start doing SOMETHING. No matter how small it seems right now, it will help. I've never been a physically weak person and I literally hate feeling weak. So, no more. Sooner or later, my physical weakness will turn into physical strength. It's just a matter of taking control and doing what needs to be done.
Now, spiritual weakness is a whole other realm of weakness. I don't really have a "plan" here. My spiritual weakness doesn't come from a lack of prayer or lack in my relationship with God. I pray daily. I do bible study daily. I truly believe in and love my God. So what is the problem? I'm not exactly sure. I do know that many thoughts and feeling (mainly negative thoughts and feeling about MYSELF) are probably somewhat responible for my spiritual weakness. Feelings of guilt, self-disgust, insecurity, no self- confidence, and no self-worth always creep in and take over. My whole life I've always felt that I wasn't "good enough". That my best wasn't good enough. I'm a perfectionist and if I can't live up to the standards that are acceptable to me.....I throw in the towel. What a lousy way to live, right? Trust me, it is. The thing that I NEED to accept is, is that no matter how much I strive to be perfect (physically and spiritually), I'll never be that way. None of us will. It's unrealistic. Unachievable. Unattainable. It's not going to happen. So, why am I this way? I don't know. Wow, being brutally honest sucks.
I did find some tips online that could help though. Here's the link. #2 is me made over.
http://ezinearticles.com/?10-Powerful-Tips-to-Improve-Self-Confidence&id=1018704
I figured I would start on #10. I love to sing and I used to have self-confidence when singing at church, but I've let it slide. God blessed me with a talent and it's time I starting being passionate about sharing it again.
So, that's it. It's a start, right?
Here's to turning weakness into strength, using pain to achieve self-worth, and fighting for a life that deserves happiness and greatness. Cheers! (Imagine me holding up a beverage of some sort.)
Until next time...
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Check-In
I promised you guys that I wouldn't wait a whole month to check in again, so here I am- although I realize I am cutting it a bit close.
I've had some good days and some not-so-good days. In the past week, there have been more "not-so-good" days. I really don't know what to say. Things were looking up and all the sudden my muscle twitches are back, my lymph node is swollen again (and hurts like heck!), my mood sucks, can't sleep and I'm very tired again Same old crap. It's very strange. I'm beginning to think that some of these issues aren't connected to the Vitamin D deficiency. I cannot WAIT until my appointment with the Endocrinologist in April! I'm praying I will start getting some answers!
Now that I've gotten that out of the way....
I hope you all had a wonderful Valentine's Day! I had a bouquet of chocolate waiting for me when I woke up, so I was a happy girl. Chocolate makes everything better :)
Being super tired and having insomnia has it's perks. I've been able to get caught up on all my DVR'd shows that I was behind on. I'm 100% caught up! I've even started watching a new series on HuluPlus that I've been wanting to watch for a while now.....Prison Break. I'm addicted to this show! And Wentworth Miller is my new celebrity crush. How have I not seen or heard of this guy until now?!?!
Anyway, that's what's been going on with me. Not much, obviously. Just wanted to briefly check in with y'all. Thank you all for your support and love. I'm very thankful for all my readers and supporters.
Here's a thought I'll leave you with.
I've been in a dark place lately, but there's always someone out there that is going through something much worse. So no matter what.....I'm always grateful and thankful for all the good in my life. I am trying to learn to be grateful for the bad as well because I know that in the end, I will be stronger for it.
Much love to you all!
Until next time...
I've had some good days and some not-so-good days. In the past week, there have been more "not-so-good" days. I really don't know what to say. Things were looking up and all the sudden my muscle twitches are back, my lymph node is swollen again (and hurts like heck!), my mood sucks, can't sleep and I'm very tired again Same old crap. It's very strange. I'm beginning to think that some of these issues aren't connected to the Vitamin D deficiency. I cannot WAIT until my appointment with the Endocrinologist in April! I'm praying I will start getting some answers!
Now that I've gotten that out of the way....
I hope you all had a wonderful Valentine's Day! I had a bouquet of chocolate waiting for me when I woke up, so I was a happy girl. Chocolate makes everything better :)
Being super tired and having insomnia has it's perks. I've been able to get caught up on all my DVR'd shows that I was behind on. I'm 100% caught up! I've even started watching a new series on HuluPlus that I've been wanting to watch for a while now.....Prison Break. I'm addicted to this show! And Wentworth Miller is my new celebrity crush. How have I not seen or heard of this guy until now?!?!
Anyway, that's what's been going on with me. Not much, obviously. Just wanted to briefly check in with y'all. Thank you all for your support and love. I'm very thankful for all my readers and supporters.
Here's a thought I'll leave you with.
I've been in a dark place lately, but there's always someone out there that is going through something much worse. So no matter what.....I'm always grateful and thankful for all the good in my life. I am trying to learn to be grateful for the bad as well because I know that in the end, I will be stronger for it.
Much love to you all!
Until next time...
Friday, February 1, 2013
Things ARE Getting Better!
Yes, yes indeed, they are.
I have felt vastly better this week. Especially the first half of the week. The past couple of days haven't been quite as good, but still.....SO MUCH BETTER! My muscles are feeling stronger, my body isn't aching as much, my tremors (or muscle twitches) are decreasing, my lymph node is no longer swollen. Lots of good news! But more than anything, it feels good to feel better emotionally. My mood has been steadily getting better and I feel the depression leaving. To finally see some light in the darkness....well that feels better than any physical improvement I've had. Things are definitely getting better.
In fact, I've felt so much better that I started working on an art project a couple of days ago. I got out my canvas and paint and started working on creating something that is very personal. I don't know exactly what the end result will be, but so far it's been very therapeutic. I can't wait to see how it turns out because I'm trying something new and I'm hoping it works out on canvas as well as it works in my mind. I guess we'll find out :)
Oh, and we found out this week that our little man made honor roll. I'm so proud of how hard he has been working and I LOVE having such an important part in his education. This just added to the happiness of an already happy week :)
Thanks to all of you that prayed for me and kept me in your thoughts. I definitely felt them and I'm blessed to have such wonderful supporters. You guys ROCK!
Until next time...
I have felt vastly better this week. Especially the first half of the week. The past couple of days haven't been quite as good, but still.....SO MUCH BETTER! My muscles are feeling stronger, my body isn't aching as much, my tremors (or muscle twitches) are decreasing, my lymph node is no longer swollen. Lots of good news! But more than anything, it feels good to feel better emotionally. My mood has been steadily getting better and I feel the depression leaving. To finally see some light in the darkness....well that feels better than any physical improvement I've had. Things are definitely getting better.
In fact, I've felt so much better that I started working on an art project a couple of days ago. I got out my canvas and paint and started working on creating something that is very personal. I don't know exactly what the end result will be, but so far it's been very therapeutic. I can't wait to see how it turns out because I'm trying something new and I'm hoping it works out on canvas as well as it works in my mind. I guess we'll find out :)
Oh, and we found out this week that our little man made honor roll. I'm so proud of how hard he has been working and I LOVE having such an important part in his education. This just added to the happiness of an already happy week :)
Thanks to all of you that prayed for me and kept me in your thoughts. I definitely felt them and I'm blessed to have such wonderful supporters. You guys ROCK!
Until next time...
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Things Will Get Better
That's what I keep telling myself. Things will get better. Things will get better.
Life is full of ups and downs. I prefer the "ups" myself, but the "downs" are inevitable. Do you ever feel like things couldn't possibly get any worse? I would guess that most of us feel that way as some point in our lives. We're human. Lately, that's how I have been feeling.
My health has been getting the best of me and honestly....I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm taking my meds and waiting for them to kick in. I know that good days are ahead, it's just hard to see it right now. I look in the mirror and I don't even recognize the reflection I see. Mainly because I don't FEEL like myself. I feel like a totally different person. It's not a good feeling. I am so ready to look in the mirror and recognize myself again. But, until that happens, I will keep waiting for those meds to kick in and deal with it the best I can until I go to the Endocrinologist in April. Things will get better. Things WILL get better.
Now that I have vented about the bad going on, I want to take some time to recognize the good. Yep, amidst all the pain and troubles going on, I have had some rather good accomplishments over the past month that I'd like to share.
Since Christmas day, I haven't had ANY sodas or meat. I have cut back tremendously on dairy and artificial sweeteners as well. I don't think I've dropped any weight (mostly due to my low Vitamin D levels), but I've made some great changes that I'm proud of.
I had a couple of good days this past week and I took advantage of them. I started the C25K again. It was rough and I definitely paid for it the days after, but it was worth it. For that one day, I felt like myself again and it felt good. Next week will be my second week on the prescription so I am very hopeful that things will start looking up really soon. I can't wait!
So, that's what has been going on with me. I haven't been posting much because I didn't want to seem like a Debbie Downer. I always want to be real with my readers. Things aren't always peachy in this life and to pretend that it is....well, that just isn't being real and I always want to be real with you guys. So any prayers or good thoughts you can send my way will be greatly appreciated. It's just a matter of time before things start looking up.
My husband and son have been so good to me during all this. My husband has been helping me out around the house and my son always has a way of cheering me up. God has blessed me with the best family and with great friends that lift me up.
I promise not to wait another month before I post again. I am working on putting a post together about grocery shopping on a budget. I have had to start couponing again to save money, so maybe I'll share some of my tips with you guys. Thanks for taking the time to read and share this journey with me.
Until next time...
Life is full of ups and downs. I prefer the "ups" myself, but the "downs" are inevitable. Do you ever feel like things couldn't possibly get any worse? I would guess that most of us feel that way as some point in our lives. We're human. Lately, that's how I have been feeling.
My health has been getting the best of me and honestly....I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm taking my meds and waiting for them to kick in. I know that good days are ahead, it's just hard to see it right now. I look in the mirror and I don't even recognize the reflection I see. Mainly because I don't FEEL like myself. I feel like a totally different person. It's not a good feeling. I am so ready to look in the mirror and recognize myself again. But, until that happens, I will keep waiting for those meds to kick in and deal with it the best I can until I go to the Endocrinologist in April. Things will get better. Things WILL get better.
Now that I have vented about the bad going on, I want to take some time to recognize the good. Yep, amidst all the pain and troubles going on, I have had some rather good accomplishments over the past month that I'd like to share.
Since Christmas day, I haven't had ANY sodas or meat. I have cut back tremendously on dairy and artificial sweeteners as well. I don't think I've dropped any weight (mostly due to my low Vitamin D levels), but I've made some great changes that I'm proud of.
I had a couple of good days this past week and I took advantage of them. I started the C25K again. It was rough and I definitely paid for it the days after, but it was worth it. For that one day, I felt like myself again and it felt good. Next week will be my second week on the prescription so I am very hopeful that things will start looking up really soon. I can't wait!
So, that's what has been going on with me. I haven't been posting much because I didn't want to seem like a Debbie Downer. I always want to be real with my readers. Things aren't always peachy in this life and to pretend that it is....well, that just isn't being real and I always want to be real with you guys. So any prayers or good thoughts you can send my way will be greatly appreciated. It's just a matter of time before things start looking up.
My husband and son have been so good to me during all this. My husband has been helping me out around the house and my son always has a way of cheering me up. God has blessed me with the best family and with great friends that lift me up.
I promise not to wait another month before I post again. I am working on putting a post together about grocery shopping on a budget. I have had to start couponing again to save money, so maybe I'll share some of my tips with you guys. Thanks for taking the time to read and share this journey with me.
Until next time...
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